I’M BACK…AGAIN!

I had this ready to go a couple of weeks ago, trying to get back into my normal Wednesday blogpost, but for some reason, the evening got away from me and my good intentions to get back to “work” on my blog, just went out the window.

Let it be known, I’m back. This post will address the “Where have you been?” “Are you okay?” and “I miss you!” comments I have received from some of my beloved followers.

My last post was at Christmas time over three months ago. I am so sorry! To say I’m not sure what went wrong would be the truth on some levels but on some levels, I’m pretty sure that it was just a time of being in a FUNK…Fully Under the spell of Negativity and Kerffluffing (causing confusion & disorder)!

Yep, I was in a funk. Now those of you who know me, know that FUNKS are not my style! Trust me, I do not like funks and I rarely allow myself to go there. This time was a little different. I actually got into the funk before I even realized it.

December was not an easy month…there are trigger dates that month (reminder of sad days prior to divorce), lots of activities and fun, much of which had to be cancelled due to “Pearl” my kidney stone, the busy days of Christmas prep, continuing to feel bad physically and keeping a smile on my face through the holidays with Katie & her family visiting for Christmas, (*I loved it all but just didn’t feel great!). I also worried during this time that my parents would stay safe and healthy as we had more social contact with people, and sometimes, it got overwhelming. Honestly, my Mom is up and down, some days better than others. Caregiving is hard, especially when it’s someone you love as much as I love my Mom. But she keeps plugging along!!

As the New Year rolled in, I made my list and got my plans together for how I was going to shake things off. I couldn’t stay up until midnight, I wasted most of my New Year’s Day by laying around watching my favorite Twilight Zone marathon, and found myself so not motivated for much of anything.

I spent a long weekend in Pittsburgh, taking care of Gabriel and Adrian and although it’s exhausting, it was a spirit-lifter!! I loved being with them and realized that they always seem to give me joy!

Fast forward to the first of February and dang it, I was still approaching my personal plans for the new year with less enthusiasm than I had hoped for. Then, one night, as I was tossing and turning, I tuned in a podcast on my phone and listened to it. I fell asleep while listening, but what I did hear, said something to me, and finally, I felt like I could get out of this funk.

I’m overwhelmed on a lot of levels, but I’m making changes and it’s helping! I’m setting small goals and plan to achieve them. I’m preaching to myself that you must take care of yourself to take care of others. So, I’m working on it!

It’s now April and I have lots to look forward to…long weekend with Katie, Opening Night at Churchill Downs, and of course Derby!! There will be other fun things too. For now, looking ahead and taking it all in stride. 

I’m looking to free myself from the funk and by writing it to you, it helps and I thank you!