Still Letting Go….

 

Welcoming myself home from our Mother/Daughter “spa” trip and I am so grateful for the chance to spend quality time with my sweet Katie! We had a great few days of bonding and laughing and solving big problems like, “which pajamas to wear” or “what to order from room service” or “are you ready for a nap?” and other big issues! It was so great to get away with no worries! Of course, she’s a mom, so she had to check in with Anthony and Gabriel each day but other than that, we were two free babes!!

I appreciated every minute and I’m grateful for a safe trip! Next time I’ll see Katie and crew will be over Labor Day as we celebrate Gabriel’s 2^nd birthday!!!

In other news…On Monday, I sold my bed! Remember, I’m trying to “let go” of things? Well, I have tried to sell my bed multiple times and the last time I tried, the young couple wanted the mattress and box springs, but not the beautiful (in my opinion!) king size sleigh bed. It was killing me to get rid of it, but it’s killing me more to have it just sitting in storage and paying to have it there!

I have been trying really hard to “let go” of so many things and so, I decided to try one more time. The decision had been made that if the bed did not sell this time, I would donate it to a non-profit that sells reduced home furnishings.

I put it on Facebook Marketplace, one more time. There were three immediate requests to purchase, but all of them were scammers. One offered to send me a check for more than the asking price, but he needed my phone number and account number to process the payment. Hmmmmm…. Another asked me to send him my phone number and he would send me a special code. Once I had that code, he would know that I was a real person. WTH??? And finally, the other one wanted me to deliver to a location in southern Indiana. No thanks!

Then…Jeff asked if it was still available. I told him yes, but that I had been planning to take it down if it didn’t sell that day. He asked to meet me at the storage unit on Monday night and he showed up, with a trailer and within 30 minutes, the furniture was loaded and secured and the asking price cash was in my hands. I did it! I sold my bed…the bed, part of my 30^th anniversary present. Greg and I had splurged to get something that I really wanted. However, it was time to let it go. My feelings for this piece of furniture had finally faded. One more thing that I let go!

There were no tears, there was no fuss, there was no boo-face! I just let it go and I’m calling that a victory! For those of you who know me, and know how hard it has been to “let go” of my marital past, you know this was a victory and for those of you who really don’t know me that well, you probably think I’m nuts. So much of what sits in the storage unit is my history…my furniture, my holiday décor, my special treasures, and more. I’m not sure when I’ll be moving as it seems I’m here for awhile, but I do know that when the time comes, more than likely, those things may or may not be as special. The letting go has to come in stages.

My counselor, who I had stopped seeing a few months ago, asked me to write a review for her website. We had a great relationship and I have credited her for much of my success in navigating my divorce and the rest of my story. Sometimes, it’s still hard to believe that I’m in this place. However, she sent me a note that made me realize I had come a long way. I’d like to share part of her note to me…

And thank you as always for your kind, specific words. They are ALWAYS helpful to other people looking for good help.

You have been such a bright light. Thanks for trusting me with the darker days and processing them well. What an honor to join you there. You are a joy and a blessing-

And you get to be human- complete with all the shadows and challenges of being human. You do such a great job being a very wonderful human being. Life is good! And so much better because you are in the world!

Much love,

Beth

Honestly, I think she must have known I needed to hear those words. Getting home from my few days away, and jumping right back into our new normal routines, and wondering what will be next!

I hope you have a “Beth” who thinks this way about you! XOXOXO