Off Days!

Oh how I love my three-days a week job! It gives me a mid-week break and a long weekend every week!

Working Monday/Tuesday/Thursday is working out just fine! Joey & Steve take the overnight shift on Tuesdays, so I can have a full night’s sleep!! It’s Heavenly!

As you know, it’s blog Wednesday and today, although it has been my “off” day…it has been a full day! When I arrived home, I had to prepare for my “tele-therapy” session. I have determined that my mental state is in a good place. It could be the Lexapro, it could be the counseling, it could be the anticipation of a vaccine for 60 and over very soon (me!). It’s also pricey so I have decided that it is time to step back. It was a good session, discussing my progress and with her blessings from Cincinnati, she felt like my plan to stop was made with a clear head. I have to agree.

For those of you who have been in counseling for any length of time, you know how personal it is and how your counselor becomes a safe person, to whom you can share your thoughts. That’s how I have felt about Beth. She first started seeing me in a raw state, heartbroken, and not very happy. Over the last three years, we have worked on many things, but perhaps one of the gems I will walk away with is the fact that I am a “heart” person.

Beth has developed, the human growth chart, that includes, heart, body and brain people. I plan to learn more about this but knowing that I am a heart person has helped me understand why I get so emotional about so many things. All of my decisions, my feelings, my thoughts, go through my heart…so I feel deeply and often, I can’t make clear decisions because these emotions get in the way. I’ve learned ways to manage that, but I’m definitely a work in progress.

It was hard to let go, but I’m ready! I know this because instead of saying, “I can’t wait until counseling” I was saying, “I wonder what I’ll talk to Beth about today.” That is huge!

After that, my morning routine with Mom took place and by the time we finished getting her ready for the day, it was lunch time, finishing up household routines, a few questions with the doctor about the covid vaccine for my parents, a trip for us for a covid test (indirectly exposed again!) and then a haircut.

The day flew by…my day off. My tree is still up in my room but I think I need to take it down this weekend. I need some order in my room.

Beth said it so well today…she told me that I have embraced my new reality and she knows that I am going to be fine. I’m not sure if I have embraced my new reality totally, (although I am embracing my gray hair!!), but it’s not too bad!

My life is not boring…every day is different. It’s my life and I’m not going to waste a minute! Hugs to all of you!! OXOXOXO