Rain Rain Go Away!

Sitting in my self-quarantined apartment today, after a few days of feeling sorry for myself.  So much to do and no real motivation.  UGH!  Who’s with me?  Have you had any of those days?

My decision to move announced last week brought on so many wonderful, supportive comments.  I know it was a surprise to some, but no one is surprised that I want to be closer to family (although a few were surprised I wasn’t going to Pittsburgh!) and those awesome friends!

I know that many of you have moved multiple times so you get this…it’s overwhelming!  When we moved from houses previously, there was room to “stage” the boxes that were ready to go.  In an apartment, that isn’t the case.  I have found corners and some un-used spaces to work with but at the moment, I look so unsettled and I guess that sums it up!  I'm just an overwhelmed, unsettled mess.

Once I finally gave my notice at work, I had my list and jumped in.  I emptied two shelving units with ease…sorting into Goodwill, yard sale, and pack up piles.  I found a couple of corners to claim for staging these piles.  I proudly took pictures and sent to Katie so she could see my progress! 

Then, I went to Louisville and worked through a few things there.  When I came back, my motivation was no where to be found!  I totally expected to jump right back in, but that didn’t happen. 

Saturday, I unloaded the car (I can’t believe how much I dread unloading the car these days!).  I then tuned to Netflix and other than a trip to the frig, or to put something in the dryer, and change into my pajamas, I did nothing!  I tried not to feel guilty about it, but I did.  Tomorrow would be better!

Sunday, I did online church, continued to get back to “normal” from being away so long, going through mail, emptied the dishwasher, and unpacked my suitcase.  I had a few phone calls and that’s where it ended.  Another day with little to no motivation.  This was not looking good.

Monday, I had a lot of work to do.  I devoted the day to working on my projects for MND.  We had a Zoom staff meeting and although I had been busy, I didn’t accomplish anything from my “move” list.

Tuesday, yesterday, I had lots of parking lot errands to run…you know, the kind where you call someone when you arrive, they run out and put something in your trunk.  Then I needed to drop off a few things at front doors of people, and all of this while it was raining cats and dogs.  I mean, flooding rain!  However, I felt like at least I was out and about and getting things done.

After a couple of phone calls with good friends, who both said they had been feeling the same way, I decided to knock some things off of my list.  So, I posted a piece of furniture on Craig’s List and on the Facebook Marketplace at 3pm and began to pack up a few things.  I was determined to empty the chest that I had just posted for sale and move. 

For a couple of hours, I found myself getting into the packing mood and adding things to the various piles.  Finally, my motivation was in the house!  I could mark a few things off of the list and I found myself feeling much better.  My work came to an abrupt halt when I found a box with wedding memorabilia…our photo album, our index cards with guests/gifts, our guest book, and all of the important things from our wedding.  For a bit, my heart felt sad…then I found a book, “100 Romantic Things to Do!” and I laughed!  I’m sure I got this as a shower gift many years ago, and yesterday, I wondered, will I ever need that book? Will I ever have the opportunity to plan something romantic with someone?   Doubtful…and if I ever do need to figure out something romantic to do, I’ll Google it!!   Someone at Goodwill can enjoy it now!!  I’m okay with that.  It may not be on my list, but that is a big accomplishment.

I’m excited to say that someone came by to look at the item I had posted for sale, and she left a hefty deposit so I would hold it for her until she had a truck and the rain was stopped.  While she was here, she asked if I was selling anything else and I was able to sell another smaller piece.  That was good and another thing to mark off of my list!

In an effort to take one day at a time, one project at a time, I am letting myself feel the feels when I need to.  Uprooting my life, again, just two short years after moving in the first place, is not easy.  The sorting and purging is tough.  I’m not a hoarder, but I’m just not ready for some things to leave me.  My goal is to get rid of things that I can easily get rid of and the other stuff will go with me.  When the time is right, the other things can go.  For now, I’ll take the small victories…xoxoxo