I Give Up!!

I can honestly say that rarely have I said those words…maybe when playing Pictionary or Charades, but in my life, on a regular basis, those words have not been part of my vocabulary. 

Today…I GIVE UP!!  Remember my New Year’s resolution?  The one where I was going to “UN-PLUG” from Saturday at noon until Sunday at noon?  Well, this past weekend, that ended.   I’m not proud of it but honestly, I can say, it didn’t do much for me.

Here’s the scoop…I’m alone in my apartment, checking emails and preparing to “un-plug” on Saturday.  Then, noon comes and I put my phone in my bedroom, knowing that I will only check it if it rings…and if it is a family member I will answer.  All others will wait.

I busy myself with Saturday chores and errands and when I look at the time, it’s only 4pm!  UGH!   I’m feeling isolated and I don’t like it.  I literally force myself to find things to do, take a walk, change sheets on the beds, and sort through papers.  Then, I look at the clock and it’s 6:30pm. 

I did watch TV, which I think was supposed to be a no-no, but I just couldn’t do it.  If I didn’t have Saturday night plans, I went to bed early…knowing that when I woke up on Sunday, it would be just a few more hours before I could check email and Facebook.

I did this on January 4/5, January 11/12, part of January 18/19 and part of January 25/26.  I don’t feel any better.  I felt out of the loop and whatever the goal was…to decompress or to chill out or to just prove that I could do it…I just wasn’t feeling it. 

As you know, I’m a #grownasswoman so really, I can stop this at any time.  I’m also not “addicted” to my phone or the internet or Facebook or Instagram.  So, I am giving up this “un-plug” plan. 

I’m going to take it in a different direction…I’m going to take time out when I need it, although these next few weeks won’t allow much of that.  I think part of my growth since becoming divorced and with my counseling, I’ve learned that when I take care of myself, I’m much better able to do my job, take care of others, and live my best life.

So, despite the thought that on some levels I failed this un-plug experiment, I am happy to plug-in once again!  Thanks to those of you who helped me by not contacting me during these times. 

As of today…I’m all in!!  Call or text anytime!!  If I’m “on a break” I’ll get back with you as soon as I return!